[SPEAKER_00] I'm getting blood. Ik krijg bloed.
[SPEAKER_01] Your mind has opened up the blood web. Last night I got out of the fog in a
[SPEAKER_01] manner of speaking. I arrived in a pocket of tranquility where the mind
[SPEAKER_01] monster was nowhere to be seen. I stopped running and was immediately filled with a
[SPEAKER_01] strange calmness. I lay down near the bonfire, closed my eyes for the first time in what
[SPEAKER_01] seemed like days. After long deep breaths, I plunged into what I first thought was the
[SPEAKER_01] darkness of a dreamless sleep.
[SPEAKER_01] i saw it the blood web a space between reality and abstraction there is no sleep here only torment
[SPEAKER_01] even my own mind is shared and bent at the entity's will benedict baker's journal november 18
[SPEAKER_01] 1696 i'm sorry it is not 69 it is november 1896
[SPEAKER_00] I also lived through this, well, you're always awoken by people outside, like you have to
[SPEAKER_00] wake up early there is no sleeping until you're fully you know vitalized it is a while ago
[SPEAKER_00] but you know like always know someone knocking on your door you feel tired all day and all of a
[SPEAKER_00] sudden in the night you feel awake you try to do things and during the day but you
[SPEAKER_00] just too sleepy and your focus is just there's no focus now i do have focus but again i didn't
[SPEAKER_00] someone always knocking at the door asking you to do tasks that you are too drained to do
[SPEAKER_00] and always in that time when someone asked me to be on appointment
[SPEAKER_00] I always said like, yes, I want to, because I want to better my life.
[SPEAKER_00] But then for some reason, this thing is called the entity.
[SPEAKER_00] The entity kept me awake the night before and made me, you know, kept me awake the night before.
[SPEAKER_00] So then I had always when this person came to my door to say it's ready to go to the appointment, I always had to say no.
[SPEAKER_00] I've been awake all day now I have to sleep until 4 in the evening so this is
[SPEAKER_00] also something I experienced I'll read it again I don't think so maybe yeah I
[SPEAKER_00] can read it again okay I can't later I can I'm gonna keep reading this because
[SPEAKER_00] this is actually something that happened a lot
[SPEAKER_00] now in the last call of times it isn't really happening um yeah
[SPEAKER_00] woohoo can i do something with this this is oh
[SPEAKER_00] oh
[SPEAKER_00] But there are so many things about this entity, you know, Mission Impossible, Dead Reckoning Part 2.
[SPEAKER_00] They also talk about an entity, you know, and it felt like I went to that movie in the cinema.
[SPEAKER_00] So yeah, I see it in multiple places, and this perfectly describes what I've been going through, so it either has something to do with me, which I think it has, everything has a little bit to do with me lately.
[SPEAKER_00] Ugh.
[SPEAKER_00] Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
[SPEAKER_00] If he comes up, I'm going down.
[SPEAKER_00] The 4th generator!
[SPEAKER_00] What to do now?
[SPEAKER_00] Uh oh, okay.
[SPEAKER_00] There's someone over there.
[SPEAKER_00] Oh, there's the generator!
[SPEAKER_00] Go Ming!
[SPEAKER_00] Ugh.
[SPEAKER_00] Ugh.
[SPEAKER_00] Ugh.
[SPEAKER_00] Ugh.
[SPEAKER_00] No, hide and now I'm going where you just came from. Let's go there
[SPEAKER_00] That is not good
[SPEAKER_00] They run right there.
[SPEAKER_00] Where are the generators?
[SPEAKER_00] Oh, there it comes.
[SPEAKER_00] Let's see how much my intuition is correct if you see you must come by here in a couple seconds, right?
[SPEAKER_00] Is that where he is?
[SPEAKER_00] Okay
[SPEAKER_00] Let's help them
[SPEAKER_00] I don't want a sort of like kill death ratio on my intuition that, you know, by luck has
[SPEAKER_00] a higher one or a lower one.
[SPEAKER_00] I want to find a way to really make, have a good intuition.
[SPEAKER_00] Well, that's one generator, now there's two more to go, and I need my daily gold.
[SPEAKER_00] No, you don't, I'm hiding in here, you can't find me.
[SPEAKER_00] He's a pirate, man.
[SPEAKER_00] Yeah, you can.
[SPEAKER_00] I will try to fight one time, but in real life, if the entity is looking at you, better
[SPEAKER_00] But what the entity also does is it deactivates your bodily functions, then annoys you in
[SPEAKER_00] your own body.
[SPEAKER_00] That's also what the entity does.
[SPEAKER_00] so sometimes doing nothing it's also not you know you have to activate your body in some way
[SPEAKER_00] i recently learned that i have to eat five times as much as i thought i would i thought i would
[SPEAKER_00] save money by just eating a little bit but now i just watch spongebob and he is like
[SPEAKER_00] crabby patties so i just went to the mcdonald's and just ate four burgers
[SPEAKER_00] and i was like oh my god i'm going to go to the mcdonald's and i'm going to go to the mcdonald's
[SPEAKER_00] full of cheeseburgers and then everything despite how little i was actually just to save some money
[SPEAKER_00] and that is how i sort of like defeated this entity controlling my tired body and just
[SPEAKER_00] i don't know just
[SPEAKER_00] closing my blood around in annoying ways
[SPEAKER_00] also what he does is let's say i'm trying to do the dishes right that he tries to take my focus
[SPEAKER_00] away where he tries to make me bored because sometimes i try to watch something and he makes
[SPEAKER_00] me yawn very quickly i'm reading something and then like the first linea makes me yawn
[SPEAKER_00] the entity needs to be gone
[SPEAKER_00] I'm like, no. I just sort of like argue with him. I said like, no, I'm not done yet. I need to read more. I want to read this whole paper. He makes me yawn. He's like, no, no, no. It's so annoying. Ah, you miss. You can't take me off.
[SPEAKER_00] But I will find a way so that you cannot hit me.
[SPEAKER_00] People in the world always think that when you say like...
[SPEAKER_00] Oh! Oh!
[SPEAKER_00] No, this is literally something that has to do with Christian God.
[SPEAKER_00] Is that when you say something
[SPEAKER_00] Say like God fucking more
[SPEAKER_00] He has this childish tendency
[SPEAKER_00] to
[SPEAKER_00] you know, so maybe like make part of your ear explode or
[SPEAKER_00] Something
[SPEAKER_00] To give you a little sting somewhere. It's very annoying because if you say to like
[SPEAKER_00] victory is mine it's just saving like picture is mine and you literally look at the bible
[SPEAKER_00] and you're like what the like why does job ask questions this way and what like in the
[SPEAKER_00] in the verse of job you're like like god how does this make sense like like you like when god
[SPEAKER_00] answers job your job is literally like oh yeah of course of course
[SPEAKER_00] you know he doesn't say like hey but god gave an answer but you didn't answer my question
[SPEAKER_00] but the job sort of looks like god like it's like yeah he said he talks in such a mysterious manner
[SPEAKER_00] that i will not doubt what he told me even though but i was distracted by what god is telling me
[SPEAKER_00] so i always start to wonder and at the same time i'm learning the way that god speaks to me
[SPEAKER_00] me and I am while ignoring that my questions were not answered I'm trying to speak God's language
[SPEAKER_00] to him back like if God asks a question or some kind of riddle or something
[SPEAKER_00] and you have to also like keep in mind there's words that say like the roots on our feet
[SPEAKER_00] or something i'm like what we we are not trees but okay so then job tries to answer god in sort
[SPEAKER_00] of the way that god is speaking to him while also ignoring all the parts that god ignores his
[SPEAKER_00] question and god and job just asks uh god has thou forsaken me or something and how come that all
[SPEAKER_00] these questions i have for you thank god um thank god answers in a very mysterious manner that is
[SPEAKER_00] very hard to understand but job just keeps answering in some kind of way that
[SPEAKER_00] maybe god would like him to talk to him because that is sort of like how
[SPEAKER_00] god talks it's very um yeah that is what i have with um when i read the bible
[SPEAKER_00] like all these unanswered
[SPEAKER_00] questions that just gotta answer the mystery and then now for the answer okay i'll go right
[SPEAKER_00] to that killer and there's just here okay i'll just i'll hunt the killer ice
[SPEAKER_00] so many you know the song that always goes at the born identity and stuff like
[SPEAKER_00] string ways tend to death and then he says I broke everything new again
[SPEAKER_00] everything that I own you know that is like what sort of when I had like the
[SPEAKER_00] Bible you know especially it came to me when I've got the first of job oh yeah
[SPEAKER_00] you know what I just talked about
[SPEAKER_00] know so i smashed a screen i totally destroyed it like a 400 euro screen um all these things
[SPEAKER_00] but i was starting to question god on these things he didn't answer and i was like how does this make
[SPEAKER_00] sense like that doesn't even make any sense this job guy is pretty stupid how he just doesn't
[SPEAKER_00] answer he's just okay with god not answering him one like how does he not see this
[SPEAKER_00] and I read the Bible
[SPEAKER_00] I see exactly when Job
[SPEAKER_00] gives up on holding on to his
[SPEAKER_00] points that are
[SPEAKER_00] ultimately not
[SPEAKER_00] getting
[SPEAKER_00] satisfactionally
[SPEAKER_00] answered
[SPEAKER_00] you can literally like see
[SPEAKER_00] if you read Job where this
[SPEAKER_00] whole verse falls apart because Job
[SPEAKER_00] just goes along with what
[SPEAKER_00] how God tries to dodge
[SPEAKER_00] his questions
[SPEAKER_00] you
[SPEAKER_00] the job is to everything that god says he's just like ah aha yeah i just follow your story i end
[SPEAKER_00] up at some place that i totally don't understand and i'll just be like ah what a tree of wisdom
[SPEAKER_00] so yeah that is my uh what i that's my review of the job verse in the bible
[SPEAKER_00] I feel like Moses when I'm walking. I'm just talking about the Bible, and I have been untouched by any kind of...
[SPEAKER_00] No! You can't do this! I am Moses! Let me go at once!
[SPEAKER_00] Okay, just hang.
[SPEAKER_00] No! No!